I saw the green dot appear next to his face. I remember there was a time when I use to eagerly wait for that to happen.
I remember when I used to get mad and wait for him to come online just so that I could ignore him. It wasn’t easy. Hesitant at first, I use to press send.
Today, I feel hesitant again. But I don’t know why. The game of ‘whose ego is bigger’ and ‘who is more clingy’ has already ended. There are no more expectations. There are no more vulnerabilities.
There is only silence. He is no longer waiting. A lot has happened in a year. I guess I can update him. I suppose I can get updated too.
I started typing.
‘Hey. How are you? Long time. What happened to goldy? Did you feed him on time or did he die? Did you finally get rid of your torn grey hoodie which you wore almost everyday? Did you learn how to swallow a pill? Did you give modern family a chance? Did you replace our photo from that ugly frame? Have you already filled my shelf with your stupid things? Did you…Did you care? Do you remember me? Does hearing my Name make you angry?Or does it make you smile and get nostalgic? Does it..’
Does it matter? It doesn’t . Nothing matters now. I have lost him. My fingers lifted from the keyboard. I actually don’t have anything to say it to him. Nothing I can put in words atleast.
One year ago, he was the love of my life with whom I had to face every obstacle. Today he is just a stranger. A parallel universe, I suppose.
Only one key beared the pressure of my emotions;
You know how people say that first impression is the last impression. Well that isn’t true. Although they are really important. I mean your first date could be a ‘how I met your mother/father’ story or something that will make you avoid that person for the rest of your life. In other miracles, it could also be just a normal date. But in order to avoid the worst case scenario, here are 5 useful tips for your first tips.
Is being naked an option? Sadly, no. Hence you will have to choose an outfit. Wear something comfortable and not too dressy. Whatever you decide, decide it one night before. Let’s face it, that is the toughest decision one has to make and the decision consumes one whole life.
2) THE PLACE
Choose a place which is in your territory. Avoid any restaurant which you are not familiar with. Because then you will lose home advantage. You may not know what food is on the menu, is the place pleasant or shady, do you eat from your mouth, etc
Also if you sweat like a pig, choose an air conditioned restaurant/cafe.
3) THE FOOD
My advice would be to eat something in advance so that you do not eat like a gorilla in front of your date with your stomach growling and shaking the whole place. Avoid ordering food that is dipped in sauce like pasta because it has the risk of falling on your clothes. If you order pizza, limit the oregano and flakes as they get stuck in your front teeth.(Damn it, oregano ,why you do this!)
Side tip: Always carry chewing gums.
4) THE TALK
First dates can be really awkward as you do not know what to talk about. In most of the cases, first date is also the first time you are meeting the person. Avoid detailed discussions about exes on your first date. Talk and listen as much as you can to break the ice. Or else the silence won’t go away.
Yes you should be yourself but try to dial down the crazy. Talk more about your interest and hobbies. Talk less about your love for random things like sugar cubes. If the date goes well, you have ample of time to show him/her your crazy side. (slowly-slowly)
5) HOME STRETCH
How you pay is totally up to you. Since it is the first date, I think it is best that you pay for yourself. If you do have a future with your date, you can decide your turns of payment accordingly.
If you think that the awkward part is over, your are highly mistaken. When it is time to say goodbye, things get weird. You do not know whether to shake hands, hug, kiss or tap each other on the back like football players. I would say, it totally depends on your comfort level and on how the date went. Since you do not want invade the other person’s personal space, it is always better to speak than to touch. ‘This was fun. I had a good time. I don’t think you even noticed that I farted.See you soon. Goodbye!’
Hope that helped!
Ever felt like your life could be categorized under two things?
Errors:The loopholes of life you cannot understand.
Hacks:Some living formulas or mantras that you have which makes it possible for you to live your life.
Errors of life are when google maps show no traffic but traffic finds you anyway.
It is when you promise to stay on a diet but ERROR 101 your taste buds are unhappy with only salad.Even your tummy protests.
It is when you forget simple things for the 50th time.
Hacks are when you have more knowledge than g maps and you reach office or college before the given time.
It is when you find those yummy-healthy dish combo that makes both the taste buds and the mirror happy-happy.
It is when you score the highest by studying the least.
On my blog I will be sharing certain errors and hacks that I have observed through my 18 years of life.
Maybe you agree with them!Maybe you have your own!
Let us find out!